But let every man prove his own work, and then shall he have rejoicing
in himself alone, and not in another. For every man shall bear his own burden.
(Galatians 6:4-5 KJV)
It seems fitting at this time of
year to examine in one’s own heart those things which have proved to be areas
of strength and areas of weakness in our life. Therefore, I write this on a
personal level, not as teaching, but as a sharing of myself to encourage others
to do the same. Perhaps in my honesty I can urge others to be vulnerable, if
not with others, at least with themselves.
As I
move along the road of sanctification, being conformed to the image of God from
glory to glory, there are times of growth toward that goal and times where I
seemingly lose ground. I am going to
personalize what Peter says concerning the church, in 1 Peter 2:5. “Ye also, as lively stones, are built up a
spiritual house, an holy priesthood, to offer up spiritual sacrifices, acceptable
to God by Jesus Christ.” God is building
me as a spiritual house and not only needs, but desires, my cooperation in the
process. The fancy term is spiritual formation.
We all have strong points and weak points in our lives. This is
not to say that the strong points are currently as strong as they should be or
that the weak points are beyond repair, for we know that the process is not yet
finished. And that, my friends, is a good thing. So with that as an
introduction, I want to share several strengths and several weaknesses in my
own life with you.
On my birthday several weeks ago, I asked
my wife, Jan, to prophesy over me what the Lord was telling her about me. One
of the things she said was that God was giving me a new name and as I reflected
on that I heard within “Faithful and True.” So I will start my strengths list
with what God said about me rather than what I see in myself. If God says I am
faithful and true, then who am I to argue with Him? (Moses and Gideon just came
to mind) This was a big deal to me. Life has challenges that can bring us, and
me specifically over the last few years, to the point of feeling like Gideon
when the angel of the Lord came to him as he was threshing wheat by the
winepress to hide it from the Midianites: “And he said unto him, Oh my Lord,
wherewith shall I save Israel? behold, my family is poor in Manasseh,
and I am the least in my father's house (Judges 6:15 KJV). But I rejoice
that as my wife and the Lord were faithful to speak, I will rejoice in the next
verse, “And the LORD said unto him, Surely I will be with thee, and thou shalt
smite the Midianites as one man (Judges 6:16 KJV).” Am I as faithful and true
as I will ultimately be? No, but He’s given me a vision to grow into concerning
myself. This is something both He and I can build on.
Another strength I recognize is the
ability to focus. Once I get locked onto a subject or task, it seems impossible
to break my attention. Because of this, I can be highly productive in the areas
I focus on. I am a good student because of my focus. On the flip side of this
coin, focus can also be a weakness in me, but that comes later.
This has been a year of allowing God to
work true humility in me and I see that as strength. I know the work is not complete yet, but I am
happy to see a deeper level of humility now than I have before. We all need
those around us for accountability. I have many people I look to for counsel
and to keep me accountable. I know God is the agent in this, but He uses those
around us to assist. Jan and others have been lovingly faithful to me in not
allowing me to go unchallenged in certain areas of thought and action. This, at
times, has been very hard for me. But the fruit produced has been worth all the
pruning.
Change is hard for me and yielding to
change gracefully is one of my greatest weaknesses. So when change is thrust
upon me I usually respond in an ungraceful way, sometimes hurting those around
me. I am much happier in the familiar and in control. As I yield to the humility being worked more
and more within me, I believe the resistance to change and the need to control
will be eradicated. I believe this one area has hindered me from entering into
all the fullness of the Holy Spirit. Control causes hardness. Blessedly, I live
and work with those who have been gracious and forgiving, correcting me and giving
me time to seek the Lord concerning it. This is grace at its best.
Although focus is a strength, aspects of
it can be a weakness; this certainly being the case with me. I get so locked
into what I’m doing at times that the slightest interruption, again, causes an
ungraceful, ungrateful reaction in me. Although I could chock it up to having a
one track mind, I might as well just identify it as a character fault and allow
the Lord to tear it down and rebuild grace in its place. I know He has begun
the work, as I can see improvement in that area over the last year. My prayer
is to yield more to His hand and His chisel as the work of formation continues
in me.
Another area of weakness can be my tendency to intellectualize too many things. I am an avid reader, which I believe is a good thing. It keeps my wheels turning on many different levels. The downside of that is learning can become an intellectual exercise that misses the higher learning experience of the Spirit. This, luckily, is not a major weakness, just something I become aware of from time to time.
So there you have it. So rejoice
with me in my strengths and stand with me as I allow God’s grace to help me
minimize my weaknesses. Take some time and create your own list. You don’t have
to share it, but the honesty in creating it can be the first strength on your
list. Happy New Year to you, my friends.